Thursday

Today, so far, has been a good day. I've finished everything I've started. That’s always a good thing.

I am on the email prayer chain at my church and one of the people they wanted to pray for had just lost 5 family members in a car crash. As I was praying, I was thinking, “how do you comfort someone like this? how do you pray for them?” It seemed to me that that no amount of comfort would help.

Then the name Job flashed in my mind. I thought of all Job lost, everything….EVERYTHING. And he suffered for years most likely. But in the end the Bible says, “So the LORD blessed the latter part of Job's life more than the earlier. Job lived 140 years after this and saw his children and their children to the fourth generation. Then Job died, old and full of days. “ (Job 42:12,16-17).

I LOVE that! Job, through all his suffering and pain and grief never took his eyes off of God. And God knew his faithfulness. God blessed him for his faithfulness.

Now, I’m not sure how much that would comfort someone in the throes of grief like this man must be in. Honestly, all I can do is pray that God showers His love and peace down upon him.

But for me, with this long and tortuous road that I’m on, it brings me GREAT comfort. As I have been saying the past few days….I know God will not leave me here in this place. And I am fully committed to trusting Him, through whatever chaos and turmoil He sees fit to put me through, for however long He sees fit, even if it's for the rest of my life. I am completely convinced that there is a higher purpose to all the pain.

Today I am learning to find joy wherever I can. I'm not going to let one bad thing happening color my day black.

GRATITUDE FOR TODAY
1) I got all of my textbooks ordered and they should be in next week
2) God is teaching me to trust Him in my finances and He is seeing me through
3) I’m going to do a little more Step 4 work tonight
4) I woke up late but not late enough to make me late for work, just enough to make me wear my hair in pigtails
5) the ligament I’ve torn in my ankle is feeling the teensiest better today