There was a lot of drama going on over the weekend, too much to get into here, but suffice it to say God really worked overtime on me. The gist of it is....He made me realize how obsessed I've been with "self". Everything I did revolved around what I wanted people to think of me or say about me, to bring attention to me. I realized what a child I have been being the past 4 months since the break-up. How much unnecessary stress and drama and damage I have created. He broke my pride. It was like a switch flipped inside my head and I'm just over it. Ready to move on. My kids and I even hung out at the ex's house to watch the UFC fight on Sat. night. With him and his new girlfriend and her kids. AND we went to the pool with them on Sunday. I had never given his gf a chance. Every other time we were around each other I was too worried about making people think how strong and wonderful I was that I was even there dealing with it. This time it wasn't like that. My motives were pure. I was there because it was the right thing to do. It was normal. And it was wonderful. She's a very nice person and I actually think we will be friends. I'm not obsessing anymore, about them or me or others. All I want is to be a good example of a child of God and what He can do in someone's life. God is so awesome!!!
1. the sheer wonder and majesty of God
2. I've made some calm, good parenting decisions in the past few days, not caring if other people think I'm too strict, not caring if my kids aren't happy with the decisions
3. the weather has been absolutely beautiful!
4. I was able to be there for a friend last night instead of me being the needy one
5. my awesome sponsor
Hello out there
1 year ago