That's how I woke up feeling and it is still continuing. God is just so amazing. I had a really wonderful meeting last night. My english class was better because I changed my attitude about it and made myself be present for it. The best part about my day yesterday.......instead of riding his new skateboard home from school, like he had been dreaming of, I saw my son helping one of the old ladies in our park carry her groceries home. I am so proud of him!!! Tonight, we get to have dinner together at the table. I'm trying to take things one day at a time, one thing at a time. I've had trouble with that for sooooo long. I could never live in this day. My mind would always be off in the past or in the future. I would live today waiting for it to be over so I could get to tomorrow. But I would live EVERY day like that, never really getting anywhere; not knowing what I was living for. Does that make sense? I've been praying and praying the last few weeks that God would teach me how to live one day at a time. He's doing that. I'm forcing myself to be present, not off somewhere in my mind. And in doing so, I am finding His peace and the contentment that only comes from Him. I'm still crazy busy and could be overwhelmed if I obsessed about how much I have to do, but He is not allowing me to do that. He gently reminds me every time I start obsessing, to stop, to breathe, and to live.
GRATITUDE:
1. my son is awesome
2. I had the most lovely quiet lunch hour yesterday!
3. my meeting was awesome; a few newcomers, alot of absent regulars returning
4. tonight all three of us will be home; albeit, we'll all be doing homework, but at least we will all be home together
5. I got to do a random act of kindness yesterday
Still Sober...
7 years ago
It's funny how that feeling of contentment almost seems foreign after being in turmoil for so long. I think you're on to something really big...living in the now! I believe with all my heart that God lives there, and that is where we find Him. Your serenity is radiating in your words and gratitude.
ReplyDeleteBeing present is one of the most difficult things, but it always pays off. You must have been so proud of your son when you saw him. What a wonderful kid.
ReplyDeleteI like your prayer to be content with today and to be present for today; I'm going to have to remember this prayer. I get so worried and fretful about the future that I forget sometimes to enjoy the day as it is, a gift from God
ReplyDeleteAnd I'm reminded of what Jesus says about not worrying about tomorrow; awesome that your prayer is being answered and you are content with today :)
enjoy your family evening!
so sweet of your son helping out the older lady; you are raising a compassionate, caring young man :)
betty
Contentment is wonderful. Great graditude list Diane, thank you for sharing.
ReplyDeleteGreat post. I like doing a random act of kindness every day. Nothing major but just ways to be kind to others. It helps me a great deal.
ReplyDeleteBeautiful post as always. There is an award for you over at my blog. You deserve it!
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