That's how I woke up feeling and it is still continuing. God is just so amazing. I had a really wonderful meeting last night. My english class was better because I changed my attitude about it and made myself be present for it. The best part about my day yesterday.......instead of riding his new skateboard home from school, like he had been dreaming of, I saw my son helping one of the old ladies in our park carry her groceries home. I am so proud of him!!! Tonight, we get to have dinner together at the table. I'm trying to take things one day at a time, one thing at a time. I've had trouble with that for sooooo long. I could never live in this day. My mind would always be off in the past or in the future. I would live today waiting for it to be over so I could get to tomorrow. But I would live EVERY day like that, never really getting anywhere; not knowing what I was living for. Does that make sense? I've been praying and praying the last few weeks that God would teach me how to live one day at a time. He's doing that. I'm forcing myself to be present, not off somewhere in my mind. And in doing so, I am finding His peace and the contentment that only comes from Him. I'm still crazy busy and could be overwhelmed if I obsessed about how much I have to do, but He is not allowing me to do that. He gently reminds me every time I start obsessing, to stop, to breathe, and to live.
GRATITUDE:
1. my son is awesome
2. I had the most lovely quiet lunch hour yesterday!
3. my meeting was awesome; a few newcomers, alot of absent regulars returning
4. tonight all three of us will be home; albeit, we'll all be doing homework, but at least we will all be home together
5. I got to do a random act of kindness yesterday
Still Sober...
7 years ago